I've been focusing on my body for 8 months now. It's a horrific feeling to wake up every day and still feel so....large. I weigh myself atleast 3 times a day, hoping that my dieting is working. And by the end of the day, I'm exhausted, depressed, and my sweet tooth is crazy-outa-control. I've done well with not cheating too much...but I have yet to master 2 full weeks of my diet. And if I could do that, I could start adding in a few things like fruit and such...but the 2 weeks of eggs and meat...that's hard one for me.

BUT, I'm down some. I believe it was at Thanksgiving that I weighed in at 164 (!!!!). Today, I weighed in at 148. So that's not so bad. I mean, compared to the 164. So I have lost some...but like I said, it's hard. My goal was to be a size 10 by Christmas and a size 6 by April. It's February and even though I've lost some, I've barely budged in size. How is that possible? I bet if I went shopping, I could fit into a 12...maybe. But, I'm trying and I will continue to try.

I showed Jay how...not attractive I am this morning. He told me to stop showing him because he'll start noticing it. So I'm going to try to stop.

Other news....................

Brody is still in school. He is doing fantastic, but I do get nervous with him being there sometimes. Last week, a kid I hadn't met before was a little mean to him right in front of me. Made me cry and it made Brody cry. But, he's doing well. He's reading a little and he talks--amazing stuff comes out of his mouth.

Bella has an ear infection. She's been screaming and not sleeping and all that. We took her to the ER on Sunday for it and she's doing better now, with the antibiotics. In the midst of it, I gave her back her paci that she's been without for almost 3 months. She loves it. And she slept from 8-7:30 this morning! She hasn't slept through the night since we took her paci away. So Jay and I are kinda thinking we're letting her have it for a while.... :( :( But, anyway...she talks a lot, sings amazing little songs with us, and calls her daddy-------------------------------Jay. He's not so happy about that one.

Josephine is crawling EVERYWHERE. She's working on figuring out the standing thing...but she's not there yet, thank God. She's a cutie pie, though. I guess every parent says that about their kid, but I really think she's adorable. She looks so much like Jay!!! She's going to be a big girl, we think. She's almost the same size as Bella!!!

Jay is thinking he's getting a new job soon. That will be VERY awesome. I'm already thinking of everything we can buy with the money! :) I can get lipo and a tummy tuck...maybe a new...chest :) while they are in there. I'd love to have a new body and not have to work for it! I'm also thinking of a new car, a new house, new clothes for the kids, new toys for the kids...the list goes on. :) So here's to hoping!

Ugh.

*Sigh* So it turns out I've got an issue with my ovaries. I'm making LOTS of eggs. I'm releasing 10 or so eggs each cycle. The OB said it's surpising I don't have any SETS of kids by now. Anyway, the problem usually causes either infertility or high fertility. Meet my 3 kids.



Anyway, because of this syndrome, it makes it hard to lose weight. It makes it hard to not gain weight. It makes it hard to feel attractive. It makes you insulin resistant. The doctor told me I can't diet because a)it won't work and b) when I stop, it'll make me put on a lot of weight. And I did some research and people with the syndrome end up gaining weight over the years. How big am I going to get?! http://www.lisamiraclediet.com/Pages/DIET_Avenue/Eternity/women_faq.htm

The doctor told me to exercise but not diet. So I will be doing that.

Anyway, the reason I was at the doctor in the first place was the damn IUD. + = =
The IUD did not come out when I gave http://www.mothering.com/discussions/showthread.php?t=903168 birth. So now the only option is to take it out surgically. I'm going to have the surgery sometime in the next 6 weeks. They are going to take the IUD out and put a new one in. Lucky me! At least its a one day surgery.

Jay and I will have another baby (or 3!) someday...just not anytime soon. The weight, the sleeplessness, the money...it's all making me want to wait just a little while longer.

In other news, Bella signed "more" today. She's done it before, but not quite as well. She did it for eggs. Yay for my eggs!! :) And in no particular order, these are the words miss Bella says now:
Hi, Hello, Bye, Bye Bye, Goodbye, Ball, PaPa, What's that?, Who is that?, Chair, Phone, Baby, I love you, Me, Mine, You, Go, Cup, Spider (pida), Yay, Wee, Uh oh, Oh no, up, no.

Brody sleeps in his room now. He takes a while to go to sleep, but at least the fits are done with. He lays in his bed with one toy and a book and he falls asleep.

Joey is starting to become a little more energetic and awake. She's playing with her toys on her bouncy seat, yells at them a little...I can't tell if its bitching just yet, but she doesn't seem angry at them. Hehe. She has rolled over once, but nothing since. She's just not interested in a)being on the ground and b) not being held while she's awake.

Her acid reflux is being treated and it seems to be making a small difference....but a difference is something to rejoice about. It's hard to have her cry for 6 hours of the day. It's hard for her, and its hard for all of us.

I'm making a cookbook soon. I'm trying to get everyone in the family to send me recipes...ya know, those recipes that you remember eating and wish you could have again but have no clue how to make it...?

Jay and I are going back on our veggies/fruits thing. We're going to try and make good food out of mostly veggies and some fruits. We'll have recipes this time. :(

Joey is crying. :(

Check out my new site for pictures!!!!!
http://themyottfamily.shutterfly.com/

It's been a rough few days here. Fridays and Saturdays...well, they suck. MAJORLY. Jay works 9am-9pm and I'm stuck alone with the kids. Not so bad, cause I love my kids. But by 7---REALLY ready for some me time, and by 8--oh hell...if they aren't asleep by then I'm going crazy cause it means they are overtired and cranky.

But Sunday wasn't bad... we took Brody (ALONE!) to see his very first movie theater movie!!! We saw Wall-E. Not too bad. Brody had a tough time sitting still and not talking. But he was very well behaved and cute cute cute! He's getting so old! He ate popcorn and "little sour people" (sour patch kids) and drank a little bit of soda. FUN FUN FUN! Future reference: MOVIES ARE MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE THAN I REMEMBER!
The girls stayed with my dad, Kim, and Kim's girls for a few hours. It's kinda weird... I really enjoyed spending time alone with Brody, but about 10 minutes into the movie I was really wishing it was over so we could get back.
Anyway, Kim took some beautiful pictures of the girls while we were gone. That would be the ones way up there (pointing).

We went to our awesome pediatrician yesterday for Brody's 4 year check up and Bella's 15 month checkup. I feel bad because I always have to drag Jay out of work to help me with appointments...but once he's there, he realizes how needed he is! (AND APPRECIATED!!!!!)

Anyway, Brody is 33 pounds and is 3 feet 1.5 inches tall. And Bella is 20.5 pounds and 2 feet 8 inches tall. She's so tall! :) Anyway, we talked to the doctor about Brody's...issues... and she gave us some tips. 1) Time outs in a stroller. Since they don't work with him and I'm NOT about to start spanking, this is going to be the only way, I suppose. He's allowed to cry during time out, and after 5 minutes, we take him out and tell him we're sorry he's unhappy but that he did something wrong and needed to sit in a timeout for it, and that if he does something he knows is wrong again, he goes back to timeout. Here's for hoping! We also discussed our sleep issues. Brody refuses to sleep in his room. He screams for hours and ends up on the couch in the living room. We leave lights on, we give him books and even toys. He won't even try to lay down. And I read somewhere when he was a year and a half old that you can't let them cry it out for more than an hour, so we've been giving in after a while. My dad says he sleeps on the couch because we let him. I guess he's right about that. So the doctor gave us permission to let the crying go until he's asleep. And she said he's going to be less nuts for us once he goes to Prek! yay!

Miss Bella is having a little issue with her tummy, so I think we're going to limit her dairy products again. Hopefully that helps her. Otherwise, she's doing great! I had been confused about her play habits, since she doesn't do structered playing. We were reassured she'd start that around 18 months.
Anyway, the visit lasted over an hour!! The doctor is awesome! We never feel rushed or anything... Oh, and the kids both got shots! Brody feel asleep in the car afterwards.

We did the crying thing last night with Brody. It took an hour and a half. Hopefully it gets easier.

We're going up to Bennington today for Jay to apply to a job. *crosses fingers* Hopefully he gets it, and soon! We're ready to have a little more money!

Look how grown up my kids are getting!!
I can't believe Brody is going to preK in 3 weeks! It's just crazy! Miss Bella..... the Princess
And we've got smiles!


I took a muscle relaxer last night before bed. I had an inkling it'd make me "drowsy" but I've taken things like that before. Well, it kicked my butt. In the middle of the night, when I woke up, it was like being drugged and tripping ( I'd assume, I've never experienced). That was fun. I felt so guilty not being able to help out with any of the kids. Won't be taking those again.

Today, the thunderstorm has cleared and hopefully we'll make it outside to play.